Forgive Me... By MIss Star

I have come to a place I am not comfortable being so...I have decided to leave. I want you to be happy with my choice but if you are not...forgive me. I am strong so I need to walk alone.
I have become accustomed to fluster with conflict of the heart but...this time...I have conviction. This time I know what's best.
I no longer rest so my mind isn't at its best and yet I know this is what's causing my stress. Us at our best wasn't good enough for you so what makes you think that after the trust was broken and all hope was lost that us staying together wouldn't walk. Forgive me giving up and being so blunt.

Yes I am asking YOU for forgiveness. Look past what all I have stood here and told you and see yourself in my words.....see how the truth was never curved and how the facts stood tall and in the front. You can't see your self in my truth. You are not the root of the problem but the water that nourishes it. So I am sorry I had to be the woman to stand and tell you the ugly, horrible, piercing truth! So forgive me this once against the million times I have forgiven you...

Enlightenment (a high mind)

Cords smashing at the speed of light
Sound breaks down.
Light dims so enlightenment can appear.
Shatter the door to closed minds, hiding insecurities, selfishness, cowardness and shame forever.
Open!
Open like the mouth of the nile at the last mile running head on with thought.
Thinking while jamming tupac.
Humming a bob marley.
Reading Erykah Badu lyrics.
Painting revolutions through oceans of color captureing the moment.
Remembering none of this afterwards.
Words make more sense then the meaning.
Seeing the perfect answer to the hardest question
Free mental has hit you!
The herd has opened your third eye.
You see the revolution.
Rebel through you cloud of original scents.
You feel like a brain child of albert einstien and edgar allen poe...
Flower child blossom....float....ascend....
PUFF PUFF PASS......

To Unknow From Anonymous

this was for you before i knew you
To Unknown from Anonymous
By: LaWanda Stallworth
Dear unknown,
I have been lookingforward of entwining my heart with your mind. I want to fall in love with the way you think. I want you to love the fact that I love your genius. Beautiful Under the ultimate stress of everyday life. Love is the beginning of what I want to feel for you. I want my empty emotion to explode beginning of what I want to feel for you. I want my empty emotion to explode with you dynamite impact of unexpected trust. Release yourself and let go of all your thoughts and dream to me and let my absorb you. Where are you? Map out a quest so when I find you the thrill would be more thrilling like when the rollercoaster is about to drop and your sitting at the very top. A pedestal is what I hold the thought of being with you is on, so imagine what level I would hold you on… Unknown like the end of the universe and the center of a black hold. I want to hold you in the face of fear. I want to look impossible in the eye for you and confuse it. I want to hold you and connect our life lines so we can expand our lifetime. Unknown come to me. Follow the Lonely rhythm of my heart. And once you find it, Treasure it like I will treasure you. Unknown come to me. Be part of me like my mind and soul…u see those are things the once my physical is gone it will still remain. Unknown where are you? Come find me. Be beside me. Be part of me. Become one with me. Unknown Love me… treasure you. Unknown come to me. Be part of me like my mind and soul…u see those are things the once my physical is gone it will still remain. Unknown where are you? Come find me. Be beside me. Be part of me. Become one with me. Unknown Love me…

Rent

Now that your gone a hollow space lingers in the deepths of my heart...
I miss you.
I asked you to stay but the obviously the demand wasn't stern enough
Hard enough....
Meaningful...enough....
Pounding depression regrets and denial. She isn't gone! She's just taking time off.
Lying to myself. With what help; my mind believing the lies I'm feeding.
Starving foe truth.
What's the use? Pointless fight through the night. While time speeds through on a steady flight....
I still miss you...
Acceptance will never know me. I refuse to let you die. Mentally.
The empty space travels daily in my heart.
I'm not giving this space away anymore. So when the next person leaves me I can simply tell myself...
I have room for rent......

hug

Hug: by me miss star Embrace me with the security of ur favorite kush like ur lips on the blunt… be bluntly grab me… hug me

poem for Granny R.i.paraise

Poem for Grandma…rest in paradise…..your in my features. I hear u in my smile my attitude, even my blood. I see u in my laughter my thoughts and in my courage. U are eternally there. Breathing and living and dancing and singing. U are in my hands the strenght I wish to hold. You are in my love so I give u to everyone. I cherish my hands…… an essence so familiar I can not find for it is gone, yet its still in me. In my attitude….my hands….my smile. I will live for you.

Reception

(To losing understanding with your lover)


By: LaWanda Stallworth aka missstar314

Losing understanding with your lover is devastating…Especially when there's only one person losing RECEPTION. You constantly try to read their minds and see what could be bothering the depths of their hearts, which is squeezing you out of their heart: what is taking the space. You ask everyday and you get no answer: Due to the lack of reception. Something is clouding his perception: your heart is accepting the rejection. As you lay next to him you watch as he toss and turn in his slumber…Wondering what has him vexed to the point he sweats and sometimes cries in his sleep. You ask him and he says "nothing! Stop tripping". So you let It go and you do what every it takes to make him happy and content but all he does is get aggravated by you asking him why he's worried…Things get worst when you ask him Why he came in late..He lashes out at you and accuses you of being paranoid: May be you doing something untrue. Now you're stressing and can't sleep. You can't sleep at night and you dreams or bothering you rest, and every time he calls you it pointless and you become vexed. Now when he talks to you it sounds like he's losing interest and you don't smile and he doesn't smile. Now you have lost all your reception. You don't see his phone calls at nine and the phone calls in the bathroom. Your perception is now clouded. You don't see the new under wear to replace the missing ones. Your perception is clouded. You don't even see him anymore. He no longer exists. You're in a relationship with your worries and misperception. You're in a relationship with your misery and yourself. Now all the relationship is full of static. The channels are all broken. All the reception is gone…

Empty Hugs

mother daughter

An empty hug filled with broken emotions.
That is what me and my mother share!
We love each other but for no reason.
She does not love who I am.
She does not love why I love.
She only loves me because I am her daughter.
She does not respect me.
She does not listen to me.
She just hears.
My mother does not love me.
She just loves.
But I still love who she is.
How she loves and why she does…
I am a sad daughter with a broken heart.
I another scar love has to where making it more ugly in this relationship of DNA.
An empty hug is what I share with my mother.

by LaWanda Stallworth aka Miss star314